Ever since 2016 started, I’ve been busy studying for our Pre-Board examinations in January and February, and now for Boards, three of which are over. They will be ending on 30th March.
By the end of 2015, as the days inched closer to the end of this academic session, the writer in me grew restless. I had to abandon my work to note down ideas for short stories and essays, and an hour later I found myself still scribbling in my notebook, my textbooks lying completely ignored by my side. And this was time spent in just noting down the ideas and making minor changes. Every time this happened I wished exams were over so that I could write down this piece that sounded so perfect to me. But every other day I had revision tests, and every month exams. I did not have enough time.
I haven’t written much in this session, except a few blog posts, and ideas that have filled up my notebook. The only time I felt at peace was when I wrote to my diary. Sometimes the urge to write was to intense, that I did not even wait for the day to end to write to my diary. I had to write something before I could do anything else. Some days I even wrote two entries. I just couldn’t help it. In my free time, I use to look up writing quotes, literary magazines, read other writers’ blogs. I was thinking about writing all the time (even when I was studying).
So my diary was the only space where I could satisfy my itch to write. Since November, I’ve filled two 200-page diaries and am 40 pages into the third one. Earlier, one diary had lasted me an year-and-half. All I’ve written in those pages is how excited I am to begin.
I think that the wait has done me good since once exams are over, I can imagine myself writing all day long. Looking at my notebook brimming with ideas overwhelms me. So. Many. Words. I don’t believe in writer’s block, and I don’t think I’ll ever have one when I have so much to do.
Also, in the last few months, I’ve been able to figure out a lot of things about my writing. I’ve decided I want to write short stories, creative non-fiction and travel essays. Books aren’t my thing. I’ll be only reading them.
I’ve also decided a schedule for my blog, and am planning some columns for it. There are so many kinds of writing – essays, vignettes, memoirs, stories, reviews, etc. – that I can’t decide on a single thing, so I’ll be trying them all. I may or may not succeed, but the challenge sounds interesting to me. I’ll at least have learned a lot than I will by reading quotes or how-to-write-books.
April onwards, I’ll be posting 365 sunsets daily, along with a weekly post about all that’s going on with my writing and life in general. There will also be occasional essays and memoirs.
I’ll be repeating myself, but I’m very desperate and excited! Until then, I’ve to study hard for my exams, take deep breaths, and wait.